Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Tears All The Way Around

Yesterday I took Seth to get his bicycle for his mission. It will be shipped to Georgia and be waiting for him when he gets there. Today I took him to get his suits, slacks, shoes, shirts and other clothes for his mission. He looked so handsome as he was trying things on for size and color. As I watched him getting measured for suit alterations I had to turn my head away so he wouldn't see me get emotional. It's his turn to leave soon for his mission. He already looks like a missionary. The tears came to my eyes but I blinked them away the best I could.

This evening I went to a second bridal shower for Jessa. On the way home as I drove with all the gifts I blinked away more tears. Ian gets married in just a few days. It's coming so fast. He just barely got home again.

Why do these sons of mine leave together? Seth and Ian both went away to BYU last August. They both came home from BYU just a few days ago. Today I saw evidence that reminded me that I will close my eyes very, very soon and with the tears I try to blink away...they'll be gone again.

So I guess there are tears all the way around... I will just do the best I can and be grateful for the blessing of a beautiful and amazing daughter-in-law to be and a well-prepared, faithful missionary to be. People tell me it's the way it should be.

I'll just buy extra kleenex to get me through just in case.
Ian and Seth

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Congratulations Gregory!

A big congratulations goes out to Gregory.
He graduated law school on Friday.
He is an amazing hard worker.
This was his study group.
Sarah and Gregory have endured their first 5 1/2 
years of marriage with Gregory as a student.
 I love this picture of Nathan and Gregory.
And this one of Hannah.
Nathan just loved the balloons.
Gregory is an outstanding person.
He's a marvelous son-in-law.
He's a good father and a good 
husband to our daughter.
I have no doubt that he'll be 
an excellent lawyer.
Congratulations Gregory!

Thursday, April 25, 2013

I Win!

Last fall I planted new tulips in my yard.
The deer have not discovered them.
I WIN the saga of the deer vs. my tulips!!!!!!!!

They are so BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Next Week...Really?

It seems like yesterday that I was waiting anxiously for Ian to return from his mission. It's hard to believe that next week he'll be getting married. Seth is home for the weekend and I went upstairs a while ago to wake him up and sat on the edge of his bed talking to him. I looked across the room at the whiteboard above Ian's bed that says "Welcome Home Ian." I looked at Seth and muttered, "He never really came home, did he?" Ian unpacked from his mission in Brazil directly into his boxes for BYU because school started three days after his return. Well it's already the end of the school year next week and Ian will come home for just one week before he gets married.

I am happy about his upcoming marriage. We love Jessa and Ian is happy. They are a good match. It's just hard to believe that not long ago I sent him off on his mission, waited longingly for two years to see him again, welcomed him home, and now he's leaving for good. It's the way it's supposed to be really. He's mature, firmly centered on living the gospel, serving his fellowman, and solidly planning for his future as a husband, father, and work as a mechanical engineer. What more could I possibly ask? It's what I raised him to do. It's what most mothers hope for their children. It just is happening sooner than I thought it would.

I'll try to squeeze a little time with Ian before he gets married. It will be an extremely tight schedule but hopefully we can fit something in. We'll blink our eyes and he'll be here and then gone again. Maybe I should change the sign above his bed to read "Bon Voyage Ian, how we love you."

And then it's Seth's turn to leave three weeks after that. Oh my.

And so it goes...

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Peace Amidst Tragedy

Watching the events of the bombings in Boston leaves many of us scratching our heads again. The acts of one or perhaps in this case, a few, were intended to rob people of their sense of peace. That's a sad comment about the world we live in...that the actions of a few can affect so many.

I am impressed by the words from our recent Conference: "We all long for peace. Peace is not just safety or lack of war, violence, conflict, and contention. Peace comes from knowing that the Savior knows who we are and knows that we have faith in Him, love Him, and keep His commandments, even and especially amid life’s devastating trials and tragedies" Elder Quentin L. Cook.

He also said "Remember, “God is not the author of confusion, but [the author] of peace.” For those who reject God, there is no peace. We all participated in the councils of heaven that provided for moral agency, knowing that there would be mortal pain and even unspeakable tragedy because of the abuse of agency. We understood that this could leave us angry, bewildered, defenseless, and vulnerable. But we also knew that the Savior’s Atonement would overcome and compensate for all of the unfairness of mortal life and bring us peace."

He went on to say, "The Savior is the source of true peace."

In a troubled world where trouble looms and peace seems fleeting sometimes, I agree that the only source of true peace comes from our Savior. His is lasting peace. Despite the ongoing tragedies that plague our society, we can always turn to Him for peace amidst the storm.

I also think that there are many people who can spread peace by pointing others to the true source of peace, Christ. That's what missionaries do. I prayed for the missionaries in the Boston area this morning that they would have the Lord's Spirit to bless them to know what to say to help others if asked.

My heart goes out to all the people hurt in the bombings and all their loved ones. I live far away but I want them to know that I care and that I am praying for them. I feel in my heart to mourn with them and add my prayers to theirs for peace, comfort, hope, and healing.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Thoughts About Driving, Mission Prep, Wedding Prep, And Writing

I started driving again yesterday. That is a sign of marked progress. It felt good to be independent again. I also went to physical therapy this morning. I haven't had therapy in a few weeks but my doctor thought it would help me. I found it to be extremely helpful in a lot of ways so I am glad I went. We isolated muscles that need strengthening and it felt good to exercise them properly. I am grateful to be healing.

We have a lot to do to get Seth ready for his mission. He leaves in seven weeks. Ian gets married in three weeks and I need time to do things to get ready for that too. Time is passing quickly. I haven't been much use lately but now that I can drive, I think we can make progress taking care of some of these pressing matters. One of the things I need to do is look for a jacket to go over my black dress that will be suitable for the wedding reception. I will try to get that taken care of in the next day or two. Seth is busy finishing up his last two weeks of school and doesn't want to do any mission prep things until he is done with that. That will make for a very busy May to say the least!

Yesterday I submitted my second book to a publisher. I am happy with the outcome of this book. It is very different from the first one. It has a LOT of personal stories in it and it is an easier read than my first one. It is called Conversion The Path-The Process-The Promise. It is a book I have wanted to write for about fifteen years or more and I finally did it. I feel a wonderful sense of satisfaction at having completed such a monumental task.

I learned a great deal writing and publishing my first book. I learned that not everyone wants to read what you write no matter how much they like you. I learned that some well-meaning friends don't know what to say to you when you give them a book you wrote so they just smile a lot and are gracious, but sometimes look burdened by the thought of reading it. That is helpful to know that type of thing. When this second book gets published, I will be careful to have copies available to give to friends and family but I won't be anxious to make sure they get a copy just because it is published. If they want to read one, I will gladly give them one but there is no sense in bothering people who might not want to be bothered.

I learned a lot about graciousness. A few people responded to my book with such kindness, that their thoughtfulness overwhelms me. There have been a few people who have read my book that have expressed such gratitude for what I wrote that they had tears in their eyes when they told me how much they learned from the book and how much they liked it. One woman in particular sent me a thank you card that has really humbled me. She is an elderly woman I have a great deal of respect for. She wrote, "I read and re-read your book which helps me focus on what is important in life-the purpose of life-and to strive to do better." Another woman wrote the following review on the internet, "I found this book to be an inspiring and inspired read. The author's passion for Christ is evident on each page, and her testimony comes through powerfully in every chapter. I was particularly touched by her explanation of what daily scripture study is for her: " a well-worn pattern of devotion" that she will not skip, even on the morning of her daughter's wedding day. That phrase, "a well-worn pattern of devotion," touched me so deeply that it even showed up in my dreams, and I think about it every day as I try to make my own patterns of devotion "well-worn." Thanks to the author for allowing the reader to access the well-springs of a heart full of testimony and love of the Savior."

Because of these types of sentiments, I have learned that it's OK to write if that is what your heart tells you to do.I have learned that editing is important and that everyone who reads your writing will edit it differently. Some will express exasperation because the never ending need to edit what you've written.:) I've embraced the "red pen" as something that is very important and quite welcomed. I have learned that not everyone you know wants to read what you write but they are happy that you are their friend. I have learned that it doesn't matter how many people read what you write, it just matters that you tried to do some good in the world by writing if that is the desire of your heart. I have learned that being an author does not mean that you think you are important, it only means that you had the desire to write your thoughts down on paper with the intent of sharing them with those who might be interested.

So...I am the author of two books.
I didn't say I was a great author 
and I am certainly not a famous author,
 but I am an author nonetheless
and that makes me happy. 

I hired a photographer I know to take an official author picture. 
I think he captured my heart just right.

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Week 6!

Today is my six week mark from my surgery. I made marked progress today!
  •  I got to stop wearing my compression stocking much to my delight. 
  • I got to stop taking my blood thinners.
  • I ate green vegetables at Cafe Rio because I am no longer on blood thinners preventing that.
  • I walked about 3/4 of a mile with Elisa mostly without a crutch!!
  • I am less swollen.
  • I drove around the block (3 minutes) just to see if I could. I probably need to wait another week.
  • I wobble less!!!!!
Hurray for progress!